sometimes, i wonder what the human heart is all about. i've come to realise that we dont really say things that we mean. and often times we have many many desires in our heart that is beyond the visual access of the people around us.

given the chance, i think it would be good to invent a machine which can actually read our hearts. not our minds but deeeeeep straight into what our heart is saying. instead of having to guess, having to assume, having to think so hard that our minds sometimes burst, it'd be good to be able to just get a machine that tells us exactly what we want or mean or desire. mebbe when things are clearer, there'll be less conflicts, less quarrels, less differences and less misunderstandings.

i'm quite upset with some things that are happening around me. sometimes, we're so obsessed with our little world of our own that we forget that the world DOES NOT revolve around us. i mean.... get a hang on reality~~ the world will still revolve, the sun will still rise.. not everthing involves just you.. do u know that?

Borderline personality disorder. i think someone i knows has that.
Borderline personality disorder is a mental health condition that causes unstable emotions, impulsiveness, relationship problems, and an unstable self-image. People with the disorder often behave self-destructively, have problems managing anger, and have an intense fear of being rejected and left alone (abandoned). They often also struggle with other conditions such as depression, eating disorders, or substance abuse problems.
Signs of the disorder usually first appear in childhood, but problems often don't develop until early adulthood. Treatment can be difficult. Setbacks are common, and recovery from troubling emotional and behavioral symptoms can take years. However, treatment may be more effective than was previously thought, and even people with severe symptoms usually improve over time.

Features of borderline personality disorder include aggressive behavior, difficulty controlling emotions and impulses, problems with unstable and intense relationships, a low sense of self-worth, and frantic anxiety about being abandoned. 2 Unlike similar behaviors that everyone experiences once in a while, the negative or destructive behaviors of borderline personality disorder are intense and occur repeatedly over a long period of time.
Other characteristics of borderline personality disorder may include long-term feelings of emptiness, frequent and sometimes violent temper tantrums, self-injury (such as cutting or burning yourself), and suicidal behavior.