Non-existent.
when someone ignores u.
u feel like u don't exist.
n u try to do things to feel as if u exist.
now i know why dumb teenagers resort to their self-harm methods.
They need pain to feel as if they exist.
and perhaps pain to also signify what which they feel within.
i had a weird night.
all i wanted to do was to sleep.
but i kept waking up.
and i kept having weird dreams tat made me uncomfortable.
inner vs outer life.
internalizing vs externalizing behaviours.
